AAAHHH. Life is beautiful!
AudLange, Mom, Sherlock, Sir Some Guy, I can't even name names because then I'm going to forget somebody. Or I'm just going to go on to sleep because I need to and don't feel like listing everybody.
So the rest of you can go with that I saved the best for last but never got to the last. ;)
AudLange. ^_^. Yay.
Showing posts with label class of 2015. Show all posts
Showing posts with label class of 2015. Show all posts
Tuesday, May 15, 2012
Tuesday, March 6, 2012
#163
Sometimes by the time the end of the day rolls around, I become so annoyed with all my friends around me. They're too loud, they're too huggy, they're too THERE. Not all the time, mind you, but sometimes it all becomes too much and I just feel this constant annoyance with mostly all of you.
Now, that doesn't mean you should stop talking to me at the end of the day or even when I look annoyed if you wouldn't have before. All it means is this is how I feel, but you probably shouldn't change anything that you do. You probably shouldn't change because I still remember that my friends are there for me and only mean the best even when I'm down and out and mad. Even when I don't act the absolute kindest towards them, in the end, they're always there for me, and that's one thing I always remember because of it.
Now, that doesn't mean you should stop talking to me at the end of the day or even when I look annoyed if you wouldn't have before. All it means is this is how I feel, but you probably shouldn't change anything that you do. You probably shouldn't change because I still remember that my friends are there for me and only mean the best even when I'm down and out and mad. Even when I don't act the absolute kindest towards them, in the end, they're always there for me, and that's one thing I always remember because of it.
Sunday, February 26, 2012
#155
From my tumblr (http://hickitty.tumblr.com/post/18344306850/i-dont-think-ill-ever-understand-just-how-much-i-mean ):
I don't think I'll ever understand just how much I mean to people. ....
...
My friends, my followers, my teachers, my boyfriend.
Understanding that stuff from my family is easiest, but how about the rest?
I forget that my boyfriend and my friends believe in me, but then when they tell me it all comes rushing back: wave upon wave returns and I REMEMBER: OH You've said that before. You really mean it, don't you? You really do think I'm strong and you really do think I'm brave and you really do believe in me! I don't know why I forgot so easily, but I did!
And not just you, but others, have said that before! You all really believe in me, don't you?
And then, to my followers and subscribers and visitors .... I will never know how much what I blog and post and reblog will affect you.
Never in a million years, will i understand.
I don't think I'll ever understand just how much I mean to people. ....
...
My friends, my followers, my teachers, my boyfriend.
Understanding that stuff from my family is easiest, but how about the rest?
I forget that my boyfriend and my friends believe in me, but then when they tell me it all comes rushing back: wave upon wave returns and I REMEMBER: OH You've said that before. You really mean it, don't you? You really do think I'm strong and you really do think I'm brave and you really do believe in me! I don't know why I forgot so easily, but I did!
And not just you, but others, have said that before! You all really believe in me, don't you?
And then, to my followers and subscribers and visitors .... I will never know how much what I blog and post and reblog will affect you.
Never in a million years, will i understand.
#154
I'm so surrounded by people who love me..... Oh my gosh.
It's slightly overwhelming; although, this overwhelming is nice and warm and fills me up.
I forget how much people care.
Take this: Year of 2012, Month of February, Realization of How Blessed I Truly Am To Have So Many Friends That Love Me And Tell Me Often.
I'll try really hard to not forget ever again. No perfect promises available; I'm sorry.
It's slightly overwhelming; although, this overwhelming is nice and warm and fills me up.
I forget how much people care.
Take this: Year of 2012, Month of February, Realization of How Blessed I Truly Am To Have So Many Friends That Love Me And Tell Me Often.
I'll try really hard to not forget ever again. No perfect promises available; I'm sorry.
Friday, February 24, 2012
#153
I kind of realized what another huge part that was making me sad... I kind of realized what it was.
When I was at home, crying, last night or when I was close to tears, I knew my friends would make me feel better.
That's why I was so depressed that I won't see them until Monday.
Last night, I was certain that there would be a good chance I would cry today at school but I didn't. My friends.... I never cry around them unless it's really bad. It's not because I don't want to.. It's because they make me so happy.
For example, when I was putting my shoes on for track after school today, I was sitting on the floor in front of Chappers and Lexbri was sitting on the small table against the wall to my left and talking to someone (I forgot who) and I couldn't help but smile. I couldn't help but laugh either. A small laugh. A small smile, and then it quickly went away. But it was there.
That's when I realized how happy my friends make me.
And that being in NYC with them got me all used to being around them so much...
And then I was just let down this school week. It was one of the worst, even though it was only three days long.
Bt I'm going to sleep now so I can get up and watch We Are Augustines on Jimmy Kimmel Live at 11:45 tonight. Bye, I love you all.
-Kitty
When I was at home, crying, last night or when I was close to tears, I knew my friends would make me feel better.
That's why I was so depressed that I won't see them until Monday.
Last night, I was certain that there would be a good chance I would cry today at school but I didn't. My friends.... I never cry around them unless it's really bad. It's not because I don't want to.. It's because they make me so happy.
For example, when I was putting my shoes on for track after school today, I was sitting on the floor in front of Chappers and Lexbri was sitting on the small table against the wall to my left and talking to someone (I forgot who) and I couldn't help but smile. I couldn't help but laugh either. A small laugh. A small smile, and then it quickly went away. But it was there.
That's when I realized how happy my friends make me.
And that being in NYC with them got me all used to being around them so much...
And then I was just let down this school week. It was one of the worst, even though it was only three days long.
Bt I'm going to sleep now so I can get up and watch We Are Augustines on Jimmy Kimmel Live at 11:45 tonight. Bye, I love you all.
-Kitty
Wednesday, January 18, 2012
#122
Well... Mom is right. It wasn't Holmes fault that I said what I said or felt like the day was sucky.
I'm sorry I said that.
I really, sincerely am. Now I'm going to go write thank you notes to family and a friend. :))
Sorry, Holmes. And I'm sorry if today was stressful for you too. In any way at all. Even if you didn't notice.
I'm sorry I said that.
I really, sincerely am. Now I'm going to go write thank you notes to family and a friend. :))
Sorry, Holmes. And I'm sorry if today was stressful for you too. In any way at all. Even if you didn't notice.
Sunday, April 17, 2011
#66
Okay the first part of this I've already posted somewhere. This is my paragraph for Composition where we're working on Voice, bringing in a song that explains us, and writing a paragraph about it:
I love "I Dare You To Move". It makes somewhere between the pit of my stomach and my chest around my heart tingle...it reminds me of when I was depressed. This is definitely something I would have wanted to listen to then. Because it's such a MOVING song. Daring me to move. Daring me to get my butt of the floor in my secluded little world inside my head and maybe dance in the rain. This is a dance in the rain kind of song. Twirl in your best dress like Taylor Swift and just not have a care in the world. Where there is salvation. It makes me want to dare my class, class of 2015 here at school, to move. I know I've said it before, but I really feel like my classmates dared me to move while I was depressed, subconsciously, as they went on with their lives around me, thus pulling me out of my hole with the tide of life. My wish is for them to be dared to move. I know we're not a perfect grade and that people can be really mean. But as a whole, I really do love my classmates. So this song really reaches to me in a way that not many songs do. It's just the push of the rhythm and the motion of the words and the tone of the voice. It makes me dare to move and dare others to move because sometimes moving is just really, really hard. I can't find words enough to explain all my feelings in one paragraph, and I've already stretched my limit on this...but I really want to dare my class, everyone to move. I'm a writer, I'm a singer, I'm a sharer, I'm a lover, I'm a mover. And I want you, if you feel down and out to move too (not just physically, I'm mostly talking about mentally and in your relationships and stuff), because it'll probably make you feel better.
Saturday, March 26, 2011
#63
Playlist of 3/11/11
Dancing Crazy by Miranda Cosgrove (the music video most specifically LOL cute puppy. nice touch. Dude, that guy is so erhmm...goood lookin'!!^_^! (in the music vid) and she's cute (in a whole different way than the dudeLOL)I like where she flicks her eyes back and forth. that makes me smile. that she just had fun in that music vid. I LOVE IT!)
The Beat Goes On by Beady Eye (I feel like I've heard this somewhere...but I never heard it often. I wouldn't be surprised if it's one of those songs I heard when I was little, listening to B97.5 or something and it never came up again until recently but I absolutely loved it then)
Everywhere by Michelle Branch (A more recent song that I love. But I LOVE IT!! In 7th grade...the spring...I started drawing scenes for this song, representing the love I had just lost. They were actually pretty good...but I still need to finish them. The first is the best so far.)
Barco De Papel by Gustavo Galindo (Why do I have a song in total Spanish, you ask?? Well, because I thought it was pretty, it was free, and it didn't have any cuss words in it (I checked LOL). Plus, since I went to El Salv, I've been totally caught by the fact of Spanish singing. It just flows! It's so amazing! And...it helps on my Spanish in a fun way! ^_^ I Love you my dearest dear San Salvadorian amigos!!)
Dare You To Move (Did anyone ever tell you how amazing Apple is? And iTunes? And how the name "Genius" for the Genius thing on iTunes where it picks stuff you would like according to what you have is SO LEGIT!!??? Well, i just did, cuz it SO IS LEGIT! I heard this song a few days ago and wrote down the lyrics I heard and when I listened to it in my genius recommendations, I almost freaked because it was what I wanted AND it was on the 69 cent songs....hmmm...now idk if it was on both. but Genius is still amazing!)
Überlin by R.E.M. (I almost feel like I've heard this before, but I'm sure it was just the beat and I've heard songs by R.E.M. before. Not the song. But still, very good.)
Holy Holy by Wye Oak (A song I got free on iTunes but haven't listened to the words very closely yet. Haven't looked up the lyrics either. But I like the tune. Different, alternative, but I like that kind of stuff.)
Graduation (Friends Forever) Vitamin C (I totally thought about singing this for the talent show, and now I kind of wish I had for the smallish bear one (sorry, the term smallish bear is from the Brother Bear movies), just warned them that I was sick and didn't have any accompament (sp?) It is totally for all the people leaving next year. I'll probably record myself singing it and put it on YouTube for everyone to see. THIS IS FOR THE CLASS OF 2015 AS OF THE WHOLE OF MIDDLE SCHOOL!!! YOU ROCK AND I WILL MISS Y'ALL (who are leaving) SO MUCH!! THIS IS FOR YOU!!!)
Slide by The Goo Goo Dolls (This was def in Genius Recommendations. And I freaked when I heard this one too! I heard it on the radio around the same day I heard "Dare You To Move", and I wrote down the lyrics I could catch. I had no idea it was called Slide, but I got it once I found it!! Go GENIUS!! AFTER WEBBKINZ THOUGH!! "What you feel is what you are, and what you are is beautiful...I wanna wake up where you are.")
And those are the only songs on my iTunes on my computer right now because my computer crashed. I'll sync my iPod soon, though. I can't believe I seriously just wrote all that about all 9 songs...I love "I Dare You To Move". It makes somewhere between the pit of my stomach and my chest around my heart tingle...it reminds me of when I was depressed. This is definitely something I would have wanted to listen to then. Because it's such a MOVING song. Daring me to move. Daring me to get my butt of the floor in my secluded little world inside my head and maybe dance in the rain. This is a dance in the rain kind of song. Twirl in your best dress like Taylor Swift and just not have a care in the world. Where there is salvation. And just "Laugh Your Heart out. Dance In The Rain. Cherish The Moment. Ignore the Pain. Live, Laugh, Love, Forgive, and Forget. Life is Too Short To Be living With Regrets. I could listen to this song over and over again. ^_^ Maybe it's my song for this year. ....Yeah....welcoming back to the planet, to existence, where everyone is, watching me to make sure I'm okay (those who knew), and wondering what happens next after 8th grade. What happens next after Leelee leaves. What happens next now that I'm out of my depression and in school for the last year of my life in Middle School. It's a fall out. It's a resistance that we don't know we're a part of. Tension...but not so much in my social life...between who I am and who I could be (like wanting to do the ceremony at the tomb of the Unknown Soldiers) between what is and what should be (and not knowing what should be with some ppl and things). Forgiveness...inside myself. Where can I run to when I'm scared of myself? My friends. Just let me breathe as I listen to this song and so many things run through, and move me through my head. This is my year to move! And it has been and will be! To move after my depression and to move for the 7th and 6th graders who look up to us. And to move running. Run. Run. Run. Run to not be numb anymore. Run to feel. This song makes me FEEL and FEEL SO GOOD AFTER I FELL LIKE I DID.
What happens when Bisael comes home. What happens when bro gets mad. What happens when I see certain once-hurting people on stage. So many more things that I could write for a lOOOONG time about this. Welcome me to the planet. Welcome me to the existence. Let me see everyone, because everyone's here. Let me wait for them and watch for them like they did for me, even without knowing it, they did.
CLASS OF 2015, I DARE YOU TO MOVE. LIKE YOU DARED ME TO MOVE WHEN YOU WENT ON WITH YOUR LIVES WHILE I WAS DEPRESSED. YOU KEEP ROCKIN' ON IN THE RAIN, EVEN WHEN YOU'RE GONE, AND MAYBE NOT CLASS OF 2015 OF THIS SCHOOL. YOU JUST KEEP ROCKIN' ROCKIN' ROCKIN' ON. YOU BROUGHT ME BACK FROM EMPTINESS, CHAOS, A SILENT STRUGGLE THAT WAS IN MY EYES FOR THOSE WHO LOOKED CLOSE ENOUGH, AND FOR THOSE WHO DIDN'T. YOU BROUGHT ME BACK FROM A LIVING, BREATHING HELL OF A DARK EMPTY SPACE. THE GRAYNESS OF IT ALL SCARED ME. THE FUZZINESS, UNLIKE A CUDDLY TEDDY BEAR, BUT SO MUCH LIKE AN OLD TV WHEN IT CAN'T PICK UP A SIGNAL. IT MADE EVERYTHING DARK AND DENSE, AND THE WORLD SEEMED TO BE SUFFOCATING ME. I FELT AS IF I WERE UNDER A ROCK. SQUISHED IN A MOIST, RAINY, MUDDY, GRAY AND BROWN AND BLACK HOLE. SOUNDS WERE MUFFLED. I smiled. I had fun. I laughed. I had good days, and not so good days, and awful, heart-breaking, mind-tearing days. YOU ARE MY FALL OUT AND MY RESISTANCE. AND I LOVE YOU FOR THAT. NOW....I...
NOW WE CAN RELAX. NOW WE CAN ALL RELAX TOGETHER.
HERE'S MY WISH TO ALL OF YOU.
I DARE YOU TO MOVE.
(originally: 3/11/11 Friday, 10:10PM)
Dancing Crazy by Miranda Cosgrove (the music video most specifically LOL cute puppy. nice touch. Dude, that guy is so erhmm...goood lookin'!!^_^! (in the music vid) and she's cute (in a whole different way than the dudeLOL)I like where she flicks her eyes back and forth. that makes me smile. that she just had fun in that music vid. I LOVE IT!)
The Beat Goes On by Beady Eye (I feel like I've heard this somewhere...but I never heard it often. I wouldn't be surprised if it's one of those songs I heard when I was little, listening to B97.5 or something and it never came up again until recently but I absolutely loved it then)
Everywhere by Michelle Branch (A more recent song that I love. But I LOVE IT!! In 7th grade...the spring...I started drawing scenes for this song, representing the love I had just lost. They were actually pretty good...but I still need to finish them. The first is the best so far.)
Barco De Papel by Gustavo Galindo (Why do I have a song in total Spanish, you ask?? Well, because I thought it was pretty, it was free, and it didn't have any cuss words in it (I checked LOL). Plus, since I went to El Salv, I've been totally caught by the fact of Spanish singing. It just flows! It's so amazing! And...it helps on my Spanish in a fun way! ^_^ I Love you my dearest dear San Salvadorian amigos!!)
Dare You To Move (Did anyone ever tell you how amazing Apple is? And iTunes? And how the name "Genius" for the Genius thing on iTunes where it picks stuff you would like according to what you have is SO LEGIT!!??? Well, i just did, cuz it SO IS LEGIT! I heard this song a few days ago and wrote down the lyrics I heard and when I listened to it in my genius recommendations, I almost freaked because it was what I wanted AND it was on the 69 cent songs....hmmm...now idk if it was on both. but Genius is still amazing!)
Überlin by R.E.M. (I almost feel like I've heard this before, but I'm sure it was just the beat and I've heard songs by R.E.M. before. Not the song. But still, very good.)
Holy Holy by Wye Oak (A song I got free on iTunes but haven't listened to the words very closely yet. Haven't looked up the lyrics either. But I like the tune. Different, alternative, but I like that kind of stuff.)
Graduation (Friends Forever) Vitamin C (I totally thought about singing this for the talent show, and now I kind of wish I had for the smallish bear one (sorry, the term smallish bear is from the Brother Bear movies), just warned them that I was sick and didn't have any accompament (sp?) It is totally for all the people leaving next year. I'll probably record myself singing it and put it on YouTube for everyone to see. THIS IS FOR THE CLASS OF 2015 AS OF THE WHOLE OF MIDDLE SCHOOL!!! YOU ROCK AND I WILL MISS Y'ALL (who are leaving) SO MUCH!! THIS IS FOR YOU!!!)
Slide by The Goo Goo Dolls (This was def in Genius Recommendations. And I freaked when I heard this one too! I heard it on the radio around the same day I heard "Dare You To Move", and I wrote down the lyrics I could catch. I had no idea it was called Slide, but I got it once I found it!! Go GENIUS!! AFTER WEBBKINZ THOUGH!! "What you feel is what you are, and what you are is beautiful...I wanna wake up where you are.")
And those are the only songs on my iTunes on my computer right now because my computer crashed. I'll sync my iPod soon, though. I can't believe I seriously just wrote all that about all 9 songs...I love "I Dare You To Move". It makes somewhere between the pit of my stomach and my chest around my heart tingle...it reminds me of when I was depressed. This is definitely something I would have wanted to listen to then. Because it's such a MOVING song. Daring me to move. Daring me to get my butt of the floor in my secluded little world inside my head and maybe dance in the rain. This is a dance in the rain kind of song. Twirl in your best dress like Taylor Swift and just not have a care in the world. Where there is salvation. And just "Laugh Your Heart out. Dance In The Rain. Cherish The Moment. Ignore the Pain. Live, Laugh, Love, Forgive, and Forget. Life is Too Short To Be living With Regrets. I could listen to this song over and over again. ^_^ Maybe it's my song for this year. ....Yeah....welcoming back to the planet, to existence, where everyone is, watching me to make sure I'm okay (those who knew), and wondering what happens next after 8th grade. What happens next after Leelee leaves. What happens next now that I'm out of my depression and in school for the last year of my life in Middle School. It's a fall out. It's a resistance that we don't know we're a part of. Tension...but not so much in my social life...between who I am and who I could be (like wanting to do the ceremony at the tomb of the Unknown Soldiers) between what is and what should be (and not knowing what should be with some ppl and things). Forgiveness...inside myself. Where can I run to when I'm scared of myself? My friends. Just let me breathe as I listen to this song and so many things run through, and move me through my head. This is my year to move! And it has been and will be! To move after my depression and to move for the 7th and 6th graders who look up to us. And to move running. Run. Run. Run. Run to not be numb anymore. Run to feel. This song makes me FEEL and FEEL SO GOOD AFTER I FELL LIKE I DID.
What happens when Bisael comes home. What happens when bro gets mad. What happens when I see certain once-hurting people on stage. So many more things that I could write for a lOOOONG time about this. Welcome me to the planet. Welcome me to the existence. Let me see everyone, because everyone's here. Let me wait for them and watch for them like they did for me, even without knowing it, they did.
CLASS OF 2015, I DARE YOU TO MOVE. LIKE YOU DARED ME TO MOVE WHEN YOU WENT ON WITH YOUR LIVES WHILE I WAS DEPRESSED. YOU KEEP ROCKIN' ON IN THE RAIN, EVEN WHEN YOU'RE GONE, AND MAYBE NOT CLASS OF 2015 OF THIS SCHOOL. YOU JUST KEEP ROCKIN' ROCKIN' ROCKIN' ON. YOU BROUGHT ME BACK FROM EMPTINESS, CHAOS, A SILENT STRUGGLE THAT WAS IN MY EYES FOR THOSE WHO LOOKED CLOSE ENOUGH, AND FOR THOSE WHO DIDN'T. YOU BROUGHT ME BACK FROM A LIVING, BREATHING HELL OF A DARK EMPTY SPACE. THE GRAYNESS OF IT ALL SCARED ME. THE FUZZINESS, UNLIKE A CUDDLY TEDDY BEAR, BUT SO MUCH LIKE AN OLD TV WHEN IT CAN'T PICK UP A SIGNAL. IT MADE EVERYTHING DARK AND DENSE, AND THE WORLD SEEMED TO BE SUFFOCATING ME. I FELT AS IF I WERE UNDER A ROCK. SQUISHED IN A MOIST, RAINY, MUDDY, GRAY AND BROWN AND BLACK HOLE. SOUNDS WERE MUFFLED. I smiled. I had fun. I laughed. I had good days, and not so good days, and awful, heart-breaking, mind-tearing days. YOU ARE MY FALL OUT AND MY RESISTANCE. AND I LOVE YOU FOR THAT. NOW....I...
NOW WE CAN RELAX. NOW WE CAN ALL RELAX TOGETHER.
HERE'S MY WISH TO ALL OF YOU.
I DARE YOU TO MOVE.
(originally: 3/11/11 Friday, 10:10PM)
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