Wednesday, May 26, 2010


Proverbs 1:7
The fear of the Lord is the beginning of knowledge;
fools despise wisdom and instruction.

Very often we end up in the wrong place because we start in the wrong place. If you get on the wrong train at the station at the beginning, you will be in the wrong place at the end.  If you get on the wrong train of thought when you are young, you will end up in stupidity or evil (and thus misery) when you are old.  And so, many people in the world decide that the beginning of wisdom is money, or sex, or drugs, or rock’n'roll, when they start out and end up as sane as Howard Hughes, as happy as Marilyn Monroe, and as full of life as Kurt Cobain or Janis Joplin.  Ours is a thoroughly fouled-up race in that regard.  So God helps us out in today’s verse: He tells us where to begin because we would usually never figure it out without the hint.  Start with the fear of the Lord and you will, slowly but surely, gain understanding and, in the process come to happiness.  For you will come to the Lord, who is our happiness.

Sunday, May 23, 2010


song for you:

The Voice Within

by Christina Aguilera


I'm just going to say #33

You are such an idiot.


My name is Pride. I am a cheater.
I cheat you of your God-given destiny...because
you demand your own way.
I cheat you of contentment...because you
'deserve better than this.'
I cheat you of knowledge...because you already
know it all.
I cheat you of healing...because you're
too full of me to forgive.
I cheat you of holiness...because you refuse to
admit when you're wrong.
I cheat you of vision...because you'd rather look
in the mirror than out a window.
I cheat you of a genuine friendship...because
nobody's going to know the real you.
I cheat you of love...because real romance
demands sacrifice.
I cheat you of greatness in heaven...because you
refuse to wash another's feet on earth.
I cheat you of God's glory...because I convince
you to seek your own.
My name is Pride. I am a cheater.
You like me because you think I'm always looking out for you.
Untrue. I'm looking to make a fool of you.
God has so much for you, I admit, but don't worry...
If you stick with me
You'll never know."

††here's something my mom gave to me a while back.
I didn't make it up. but it's brilliant

††moral of the story?? don't let pride rule your life...
or else you'll miss a lot of things.

Saturday, May 22, 2010


have you ever been to Nashville?
Nashville, Tennessee?
You know, where the Hard Rock Cafe is. And the old Oprey place. And that great big stadium across the river. Where there are suddenly people everywhere. Almost as if we're in a deserted New York City. There's The Melting Pot. A statue of two men shaking hands. One Native American. One white-pale-faced man. Where there's Church Street and Gay Street going opposite of each other. Have you ever been to that part of Nashville? The Downtown? I hope you have. I hope someday you will.

There's a 3rd and Church Health Care Place with a Walk in Clinic. Right up next to Printer's Alley. Then the next big thing is the Life and Casuality Tower.

Have you ever been there?
And looked up at the One Nashville Place.
And thought about doing your ALEKS.
Oh, you don't want to AT ALL.
You're tired again.
Like you were this morning when you left to come here for the Duke TIP awards thing.
And you wish you had helped your brother with his project.
And now you've lost some respect for his partner.
Oh, and you're hoping and wishing and hoping and wishing that it DIDN'T hurt his grade too much.
Oh, PLEASE don't hurt his grade.
Oh, PLEASE don't hurt his grade.
But as for this morning...this morning seems ages ago.
This morning?
Wasn't this morning last week?
The Duke TIP awards ceremony?
No, that was definitely last week.
And the voice recital I had on Thursday?
Wasn't that a month ago?
That was definitely a month ago.
Or at least a few weeks.
And the PIANO recital on Monday.
Yup, that was definitely a month ago.
No, not two months.
But somewhere there.
Somewhere Over The Rainbow.

If happy little blue birds fly...
                                           ...beyond the rainbow
Why oh why can't I?

Friday, May 21, 2010


I'm not over it


Hey guess what?
My life ain't bad
I am happy
No longer sad

I know what to say
When certain things come my way
And I know what to ignore
And I'm trying to do better when I don't want to
To be bored

And don't be mad
And don't be sad
my friend
my friends
We all are sad sometime or another
But please don't dwell

...Because I did

Saturday, May 1, 2010


here's a letter that I've written to a very special person in my life. This person hasn't received the letter yet...but someday soon--hopefully--she will. she knows a lot more about me than a lot of my friends do. and she's not who you would expect.

(actually it's just part of the letter...that thing is über long..this is a fraction of what i owe)

(but i'm taking names out)

2. Remember a long, long time ago when I gave you my Barrier Island poem book? Remember how you said there was a lot of symbolism about me sitting between my two closest guyfriends at the time? I remember. And there was. And there is. And one of the many things I've learned from this is: 

You can't make a move without deciding where to go. You can't come to a fork in the road and not make a decision. And sometimes you don't know you're at a fork in the road. You can't keep moving forward without deciding where you're going to put your foot next. And you don't get up without deciding which hand to hold on to

   I took the path I took. It was neither right nor wrong. Both sound good in the sentence, but they don't fit. And I learned another thing:

   Sometimes, whichever path you take at a fork in the road--whether you go right, left, or just walk back--it all ends up leading to the same place.


                           Story of my life...
                                              Plus more to come.


What?! Can you not trust me anymore? Just because I can't trust you?
well, i guess that makes sense...
but really! what did I ever do to you?
        And don't even ask what you did to me
you should know by now...

but baby, I'm over it...and I'm over you and your antics as well.

But I still can't believe you thought I'd break THAT promise.
Girl, are you out of your MIND?


Dear Goodness...

       now what in the world would I write to "Dear Goodness"?