#20

Whenever somebody writes a comment on here...if i think it should be...i will put it up as a post and give whoever wrote it the credit they deserve.

You deserve the credit
More than I deserve
it
Myself.

This would be nothing
Without someone to write
Along
Beside me.

#19

How This Sounds:::



a synonym for not caring


...

#18

and for all those that were in the 9/11 crash ... pray

for all those who were touched
pray

we all were

i was.....

even if you weren't alive then, you will be.

and just a moment of silence


........


and on a nicer note...just remember...that not all bad came from the date 9/11

millions of people were born!
(i guess millions.... ^_^)

INCLUDING MY SISSY!!!! (i don't have a biological sissy...nor an adopted sissy)

#17

AND ABOVE ALL....


DO I HAVE TO REALLY KNOW EXACTLY WHAT I WANT???


EVEN IN THE SLIGHTEST BIT???

#16

And you might think to ask...

"Where is your heart now?"

"You said it was gone."

"Where is it now?"

...

I don't know.

I don't know where my heart is.

But even though my heart was gone,

my love was all around...


that picture...in my head...wait...

I said:

my love was all around...

and I was walking down the sidewalk past the trees...past the clocktower...by myself...sun shining...but no one around...towards the central building...and my love was all around.

I think...my heart is not in me.

My love has replaced my heart.

He must have taken my heart.

But it's not his responsibility to put it back...

And it's not like he totally left me...

Who says you need a heart inside you to love?

I know it doesn't make much sense.

And goes against everything...ever said about a heart's love.

But maybe I'm just abnormal.

But maybe I'm just different.

But maybe I'm just myself.

My love has replaced my heart.

And my heart is all around me.

It's outside in the nature-filled air...it's somewhere without icy cold stares.

 It may be in the cold.

I wouldn't know.

But my heart is somewhere out there..

I don't know where it is.

Don't ask me.

Well, you can.

But expect a well-thought-out answer.

A teaser.

A thinker.

Not a slap-happy, quick word.

But something to lay your life on.

I don't know where my heart is ... ... ... But I can always give you my love.

3/19/10

#15

Have you ever...?

Have you not...?

Have you wanted to die...?

Just lay down and rot...?

But not wanting to die...?

Just wanting to freeze...?

Just wanting to not have to be...?

...

I know it's not creative.

I know you might think it's lame.

And my attitude really and truly was.

But I was in a phase...

And I called it:

The Great Depression.

Ha.

Not funny.

Not funny at all.

My world became dark.

My soul's light became small.

My heart had escaped.

And it had torn me in two.

In millions and billions and gazillions of two.

And I said that he had it.

But he just didn't know.

I said that he had it.

And, boy, was I in woe.

My heart belongs to what's-his-face.

I try to begin again and again.

I didn't know what to know.

I turned around and everything was broken piece by piece.

I'm not sure what all it was.

It was my light that had escaped.

My heart was gone.

My life run wrong.

A wave refusing to lap upon the shore.

Sure, I still smiled.

And had great fun.

And some days were better than other ones.

But no one knew,

How I cried when I was alone.

I cried at home.

I cried at school.

I wished someone would see me.

But my aloneness always prevailed.

The wind dried my tears as friends did.

I wanted to run crying to the library one day,

But that surging wind just got in my way.

As I ran so as not to be late to lunch,

God above must've had some sort of hunch.

Because that wind dried my tears in my eyes.

And that wind I did start to despise.

I want you to see me cry.

Because then I will have nothing to hide.

I want to stand behind a glass door.

I want you all to see me there.

I want to see who turns away first.

I want to see who turns away eventually.

I want to see who calls for help,

although no one could help me.

I want to see who tries to break down that great big glass door,

although it could not be broken.

And I want to see who stays forever.

And I want to see who asks if I'm okay,

although I really wasn't, but wouldn't tell you that.

And I want to see how long it would take me to be all alone.

I want to go behind that glass door and close my eyes and open them and see how the numbers have dwindled.

and see how my fire has been kindled.

It wouldn't be.

I want to stand behind that glass door.

And I want you to see me cry.

3/19/10

#14

AND ABOVE ALL I'M NOT REALLY SURE WHAT I WANT ANYMORE!


i just want my brothers...back... :________( ....all my brothers... and i want them to stay... how they were forever...forever... :__________(

#13

So...


does anyone ever feel that way?
it makes me want to cry.


I am alone
I am on my own
That is all I know
I am strong
I am wrong
But life does go on
I am just a girl
I am trying to find a place in this world.


...i'll continue later...I have to wrap it up for now.

#12

I don't know what I want...oh another song popped into my head...

here we go with "A Place In This World" by Taylor Swift

(ps. if anyone wants to post something that will be put up on the main page not just as a comment, leave a comment with whatever you want to post and say that you want me to put it up as a post...following me??? if not...let me know)::

I dont know what i want, So dont ask me, cause im still trying to figure it out.
Don't know what's down this road,
im just walking.
Trying to see through the rain coming down.
Even though im not the only one,
that feels the way i do.

Im alone, on my own, and that's all i know.
I'll be strong, i'll be wrong,
Oh, but life goes on.
Oh, im just a girl, trying to find a place in this world.

Got the radio on, my old blue jeans,
And im wearing my heart on my sleeve. Feeling lucky today, got the sunshine.
Can you tell me what more do i need?
And tomorrow's just a mystery, oh yeah,
but that's okay.

Im alone, on my own, and that's all i know.
I'll be strong, i'll be wrong,
Oh, but life goes on.
Oh, im just a girl, trying to find a place in this world.

Maybe im just a girl on a mission,
but im ready to fly.

Im alone, on my own, and that's all i know.
Oh, i'll be strong, i'll be wrong.
Oh, but life goes on.
Oh, im alone, on my own,
and that's all i know.
Oh, im just a girl, trying to find a place in this world.

Oh, im just a girl.
Oh, im just a girl.
Oh, oh.
Oh, im just a girl.

[Thanks to SouthernPride025 for lyrics]


[Thanks to bri, Mariah, Annie, Mandi for corrections]


from: http://www.cowboylyrics.com/lyrics/swift-taylor/a-place-in-this-world-18770.html


Has anyone ever felt this way???
...I'll continue this...on another post...
(ps. it's all in dark blue because this is my life my essence my soul pouring out only i didn't come up with the music or the song or the words, that's all taylor swift)

#11

I sent this to myself this AM from my iPod to my computer....from gmail to school email....what does this tell you about me??? idk why i thought of that...i was not nice this am...oh well...read it and ... not weep... but i guess...wonder....

DOES ANYONE ELSE EVER FEEL THIS WAY???

ppl say that ppl do but i need to know from THE ppl that feel this way. that they do. and why they do. and how they know they do. and when they do....

[this was from me...to me]

here it is...está aquí:

U r a freaking loser...

Sent from my iPod

#10

YAY! random acts of kindness! random kinds of stuff!

YAY! random acts of kindness! to find out in this bluff!

YAY! random acts of kindness! i love you till the world's end!

YAY! random acts of kindness! love the world as your best friend!

YAY! random acts of kindness! the world, well is indeed!

YAY! random acts of kindness! your friends, your family!

YAY! random acts of kindness! live a life of good memories!

YAY! random acts of kindness! no room for fantasies! 'cause your life is all too good! and you don't need dreams!!!

(sorry it doesn't rhyme at the end..i gotta go to bed..it's like this: "roses are red, violets are blue, some poems rhyme, others don't"...it's like life..yupperz pupperz)

#9

another email mom sent to me. i say it's for all of you:

  Prayer for Sleep Despite Fears 

O Lord, my nighttime fears are very real, 

but so, too, is your love for me.

Help me take into my heart your desire for my safety,

and bring upon me a nightly peace

that erases all my anxiety and lets me sleep calmly,

to awaken refreshed

and fearful no more.

#8

an email that I got from my mom. also for you. she didn't say it was for you. but i did. so it is:

It is not what you gather but what you scatter in life that tells what  

kind of life that you have lived....

So my challlange to you is to scatter as many smiles as you can this  

week.  Scatter as many random acts of kindness this week...

Have a wonderful week.

#7

Make the world a better place

Make the world a better place

...

MAKE THE WORLD A BETTER PLACE


MAKE THE WORLD A BETTER PLACE


Make the world a better place


Make the world a better place


Make the world a better place


Make the world a batter place


Make the world a better place

Make the world a better place

Make the world a better place


Make the world a better place


Make the world a better place Make the world a better place Make the world a better place Make the world a better place Make the world a better place






________________________________________________ _______________________________________ ________________________________________


Do we really want to be...


this small???


are you going to let people...


push you down???


Or will you grow stronger....


no matter what they say???


Will you grow bigger...


every single day???


Will you be that person...

who you want to be???

Won't I listen to you...

like you listen to me???

Wouldn't it be great and grand...


if the world would see???


Wouldn't it be wonderful...


if the world would try to see???


And wouldn't it be even better if we just laid it all down and said:


HEY THIS IS ME


THIS IS ALL I GOT


BUT IT'S ENOUGH


IT'S BETTER THAN NOTHING AT ALL


wouldn't it be great if everyone could find that voice???


I GOT IT


YOU'VE GOT IT


WE'VE ALL GOT IT


LET'S FIND IT!


LET'S SHARE IT!


LET'S LIVE IT AND BREATHE IT


CARRY IT WITH US WHEREVER WE GO!


AND LEAVE IT IN OUR PATH IN EACH FOOTPRINT!


let's DO THIS THING.


let's LIVE.

#6

The first two lines of this song were stuck in my head, and I couldn't figure out which song they were from. It just popped in out of nowhere. So I googled it. I came up with songs called "I'm sorry" but I knew they weren't the right ones. As I did this, the rest of the song flowed in bit by bit, like a wave pushing through a dam. It was battering to get in and I was fighting to not lose it. I usually don't put songs on here, but this one is special. It's by the Jonas Brothers, yes, but it just goes to show that it doesn't matter where something comes from, it can still be an old favorite. It doesn't matter where you are or what you're doing, or what in this world has changed since you did that, sometimes it just matters what you think of and what hits you hardest. And this just hits home with me...everything I've been through recently...everything I know of happened recently...just the fact that these things DO happen...and my life has barely started...there will be more to come...just gotta get ready for it...there may be something harder down the road than this. It's hard to imagine now, but there will be...so: Rock On Jonas Brothers plus LIFE:

Broken hearts

And last goodbyes

Restless nights

By lullabies

Helps to make this pain go away

I realize I let you down

Told you that I'd be around

Building up the strength just to say

I'm sorry

For breaking all the promises

That I wasn't around to keep

You told me

This time is the last time

I will ever beg you to stay

But you're already on your way

Filled with sorrow

Filled with pain

Knowing that I am to blame

For leaving your heart out in the rain

And I know

You're going to walk away

Leave me with a price to pay

Before you go I wanted to say

That I'm sorry

For breaking all the promises

That I wasn't around to keep

You told me

This time is the last time

I will ever beg you to stay

But you're already on your way

I can't make it

Alive on my own

But if you have to go

Then please girl

Just leave me alone

'Cause I don't wanna see

You and me

Going our separate ways

Begging you to stay

If it isn't too late.

Yeah I'm sorry

For breaking all the promises

That I wasn't around to keep

It's all of me

This time is the last time

I will ever beg you to stay

But you're already on your way.

But you're already on

Your way.

You don't have to like their music, you just have to listen to the words. Let it hit home. Let it touch your heart...as well as any music that you listen to. Let it speak to you in more than words. Listen in between the lines.

I just love this song.
'Tis a good thing.

To love.

#5

We all wanna be remembered

We all wanna soar to the stars

We all wanna play piano

We all wanna rock a guitar

We all wanna write a best seller

We all wanna take a trip to mars

We all wanna play the bugle

We all wanna be a part....

A part of what?

What is it that we want to be a part of?

Does society really know what everyone wants??? And what everyone needs????

My guess is no.

My guess is that we're not even close.

What is your biggest dream???


What would u like to accomplish???


Nothing is lame.


If nothing was lame, everything would be lame.


NOTHING IS LAME.


put it here.


if you so wish.


if you don't so wish.


that's alright, okay?


okay.


but it's not okay.


NOTHING is okay.


and people think that means EVERYTHING is okay.


but it doesn't.

#4

I am way too rushed.

All the time.

Way too rushed.

All the time.

Can't see up from down.

Can't see wrong from right.

I don't got time to breathe.

I don't got time to be.

I don't got time for you.

And I don't got time for me.

But come into this world,

This solitary, freaking world.

And if you want a piece,

A nice, beautiful, happy piece,

Come to me,

Come here

We are trying to belong in this world.

You can't do it by yourself.

You can't do it with anyone else.

You don't have time for you.

And you don't have time for me.

come on...let's just BE.

#3

Does anybody know what I'm talking about?

Does anybody not know what I'm talking about?
Because if you don't...this might not makes sense, but you really do know what I'm talking about...

...ok...that doesn't make sense...


.....hmmm


let's just say...that if you are confused...my goal has prevailed.

#2

exactly what is it that you look for in life?

do you KNOW what you look for in life?

or do you just WAIT for something to come find you?

because last time I checked ... life just didn't work that way...

or has it CHANGED since then???


Does anybody CARE?

#1

Where do I belong?

Do I belong no where?

Nothing?

Can anyone tell me?

No.....

I have to find it myself, don't I?

Gee thanks world...

Gee thanks...