#188

Okay! Fine! I give in! To myself... :D

I'm going to get my phone out of the car.... -_- :)

In case, on the off chance, he texts me. :/

#187

Trust me, I love to make you happy.
But next time you call me (or I call you, as the case may be), I am talking a whole lot less. I like to hear your voice too...
And otherwise..I don't mind, except that the more I talk the more I say things that I regret.
When I regret things that I say, they never leave my mind forever. I always end up thinking about them over and over and over and it aches in my chest, even though the other person probably forgot about it there's still the what if they didn't and what if it sticks with them.

That is all.

#186

And right after I hang up ... "Dream On" by Aerosmith comes on.
His favorite song...
Gosh.
I love my life. It fits together so perfectly. :))
Dream on...dream on...dream on...
<3

#185

Ohh, but a laugh.
As precious as a flower.
'Tis not what's in a name.
'Tis what is in a laugh with an open hand beside it.

#184

I wish.... I want to be there to hear the sigh.
Feel it fill up within your chest
And hear it rush out your nostrils
As it does through mine.
and to see it in your eyes.
That would be beautiful.
A beautiful moment.

#183

Huh. I forgot what I was going to say. I need to stop watching TV. It's Tuesday. ...

#182

I've been writing in my horse book.
At least ... I was last night. My iPad died.

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One of the best ways to fall asleep is waiting for someone you really care about to text you back, knowing that they're there and it's coming any second now. What a content slumber.
You fall asleep. Since you're asleep, you lose track of time. Since you lose track of time, you don't realize it's been hours since you received the text message. Or maybe you subconsciously know that you received the text message but you were too tired to wake up to it. So you're happy.
And then when you DO wake up, you find the text. And you feel bad for falling asleep ... Except for the fact that it was so late in the first place. But you don't feel bad for too long because then you realize all of this and you realize that you really missed him.
But even though you missed him you're okay.

It was okay.

And now! As you listen to that song you love...you think of everything you've dared TO MOVE through in this past however long it's been. And it makes you so happy.
So you just gotta tell yourself to keep daring TO MOVE.

Because it's going to be okay.

You're going to miss, love, lose, share, and wonder about people, and it's all going to be okay. I promise.

Wow. When you sleep...years can pass by. But you wake up and you're right there 'where you fell'.
'Salvation is here'.

Off to eat bacon now. <3Kitty
I'm still daring you to move. Lift yourself up off that floor, babe. And live your life..if nothing else ... For me. Because I can't [live your life].